Dear John.
I don't know how to say this, but our romance is over, and I'm joining a monastery.
I think I realised it when I tied my shoes in London, and I saw you ignoring my cat.
I'm sure you're man enough to understand how bad I've been feeling.
I'm sending back your ring, but I'm keeping your neighbor Carl as a memory.
You should know that I never will forget a new life as a clone.
Say goodbye to your creepy family from me,
Holly.


~~Dear- your partners name- (if you're single, write John)

I don't know how to say this, but __1__.
I think I realized it __2__ __3__, and I saw you __4__ __5__.
I'm sure you're __6__ enough to understand __7__.
I'm sending back __8__, but I'm keeping __9__ as a memory.
You should know that I __10__ __11__.

__12__ /-your name-

1.THE COLOR OF YOUR SHIRT:

blue- our romance is over
red- our affair is at an end
white- I'm joining a monastery
black- I hate you
green- our horoscopes doesn't match
grey- You're a perv
yellow- I'm on the streets
pink- Your nostrils are an insult
brown- the mafia is after you
no shirt- You're a loser
other- I'm in love with your sister


2. WHAT MONTH WERE YOU BORN IN?

January- that night
february- last year
mars- when we were skinny dipping
april- when I was high on sesame seed
may- when I was shaving your legs
june- when you put handcuffs on me
july- when I threw up
august- When I saw the tiny head
september- when your dwarf bit me
october- When I was taking a walk
november- When I tied my shoes
December- When your dog went crazy

3. FAV FOOD?
tacos- in your house
pizza- in your van
pasta - in London
Hamburger- Under the bus
salad- while you were eating enchiladas
chicken- with Chuck Norris
kebab- in your closet
fish- in woman-clothes
sandwich- at the mental hospital
hotdogs- in trans
other- with mr and mrs Bush

4. WHATS THE COLOR OF YOUR SOCKS?
yellow- hitting on
red- insulting
black- ignoring
blue- punching
purple- pour syrup on
white- carve your name in
grey- tear the clothes of
brown- put leeches on
pink- steal the toupee from
no socks- sit on
other- chasing out


5. WHAT'S THE COLOR OF YOUR UNDERWEAR?
black – my best friend
White- my father
grey- john travolta
Brown- my whoopee cushion
purple- my pie
red- the cookiemonster
blue- my alovera plant
Yellow- my pen-pal from Ghana
Orange – my Carl Larsson-collection
pink – my cat
no underwear – my Cartman-statue
Other- The crazy monk

6. WHAT DO YOU WATCH ON TV?
Scrubs - man
O.C. - sensitive
One Tree Hill - open
Heroes - ashamed
Lost - turned on
House - cowardly
Simpsons - scarred
the news - Mongolian
American Idol – masochistic
Family Guy - senile
other - frost-bited

7.WHAT MOOD ARE YOU IN RIGHT NOW?
happy- how bad I've been feeling
sad- How boring you are
bored- that your Honda sucks
angry- that all your pimples are in the last stadium
Depressed- That I have changed sex
excited- that there's no solution to it
nervous- the Middle east
Worried- that we're cousins
apathetic- that Santa doesn't exist
Ashamed- that I'm allergic to your hamster
Huggable- that the garbage-man turns me on
exceedingly happy- that I'm a clone
other- "Deal or no deal" sucks

8. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDROOM-WALLPAPER?
white- your ring
yellow- your love letters
red- your Darth Vader-poster
black- your pet rock
blue- the pillows
green- the pictures of Portugal
Orange- your artificial teeth
brown- your cellphone
grey- our matching snoopy-bibs
pink- the old toe-nails
other- your military service-memory-box

9. THE FIRST LETTER IN YOUR NAME?
A/B - Your picture
C/D - the oil-stock shares
E/F - My virginity
G/H - your neighbor Carl
I/J - The blood-test results
K/L- your left ear
M/N - Your suicide-note
O/P - my sense
Q/R - your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V/W - your crime records
X/Y/Z- your highschool grades


10. LAST LETTER OF YOUR LASTNAME?
A/B – shall always remember
C/D – never will forget
E/F – Always will try to forget
G/H – will inform The Swedish Tax Agency(uh yeah..XD)
I/J – have always felt dirty because of
K/L – have never laughed in public about
M/N – am makin a movie about
O/P – throw rocks at
Q/R – informed the psychiatrist about
S/T – get sick when I think about
U/V/W – told the news paper about
X/Y/Z – never liked

11. FAV DRINK?
water- our friendship
beer - pensioner
Soda- a new life as a clone
milk- eskimos
wine- cocaine addiction
Cider- a passionated intrest for mice
Juice- woody allen-imitations
limonade- your embarrassing rashes
Whisky - destroying the 2nd world war
other- hating Shrek

12. WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION?
Thailand - Best wishes
Sweden- love
England- With pain
Spain- Go f*ck yourself
China- gross wishes
Germany- With relief
Japan- go to hell
Greece - Your eternal enemy
Australia- say goodbye to your pet frog Leonard from me
Egypt- Go now
France- Good luck
Other- Say goodbye to your creepy family from me.

Feeling ill and run down today. Didn't feel great this morning, was almost late for school, because the more I tried to get up, the longer I lay in bed. I got into 1st lesson and had an assessment to do. Got to English, had to rewrite an essay. Got to History and nearly had a nervous breakdown, cause my teacher tried to make me write a whole exam essay in 20 minutes. I would have had 2 weeks to write it, but I wasn't in school when everyone got told about the essay. So, after 15 minutes of trying to write an A* essay about something that I haven't studied properly, crying, and trying to get my teacher to help me, he decides that I can have until next friday to write it. I have to start work experience next week, and I'm stressed out about that because I have no idea where I'm meant to be going, and I'll be there with a group of chavs who don't like me. Fantastic.
On top of that, my head hurts, my throat hurts and I'm getting a bad cough. I can't wait til the weekend.

So, I've kinda changed myself a bit.
I wear less makeup and jewellery now, and I feel a bit better for it.
I'm sick of being labelled as a 'goth' or a 'weirdo' just for the way i do my makeup and wear my jewellery.
And, every single mini-goth/emo in my school is wearing the same stuff as me, and i don't want to be labelled like that, as i'm not just a 'goth' or an 'emo'..i don't like being labelled, and i don't think i really can. I think the people who make themselves look a certain way, just so they fit in to a certain stereotype need some help. I really don't see labels as a good thing, and i'm glad that i like a bit of everything when it comes to music and clothes.
I don't actually see why anyone would want to conform to one stereotype.

my odd dreams are back, I haven't had one for a while, but since the dream I wrote 'Black Rollercoasters' about, all my dreams have been coming back, along with the horrible headaches.
Oh well..I'm still trying to figure out what else is in the dreams that triggers the headaches, but it's kinda difficult.

And there was a film on last night, I thought it was The Crow, but it wasn't. Well, it was, but a different version. It was awful.

Had quite a good day today, went to my grandparent's and saw my 2 little cousins, went to the arcade and actually won prizes on the 2p machines..i've never ever won anytihng on them before lol. I took a few pictures, I'll probably upload them tonight.
Oh, and The Lost Boys is on tv <3